As I sit here preparing the last entry for this year, I am reminded of New Years Eve 2016, where I found myself ringing in the New Year, surrounded by friends and an impromptu sleepover, dancing with flowers in my hair with a new baby, and pressing the publish button to my second baby of the year, #NotSoPrivateParts. Fast forward one year later, It's 2:40am, and I find myself in the same place (impromptu adult sleepover included) recalling the many lessons that I've learned within this beautiful year. What a difference a year makes, indeed. I taught my first class ever, hosted a few powerful events, became a doula, and have opened up some much needed dialogue amongst women. To be honest, when I embarked upon this road of creating a platform for women to share their "Not So Private Parts", it came from a place of wanting self healing. I needed to talk and vent and release from the trauma of my miscarriage. I didn't want to go at it alone. One year later, and over 22k women have found that same safe space. One year later, what started off as simply a blog, has now evolved into a resource of information for all things women's issues. For that I am truly grateful. Truthfully, I wasn't sure what would happen after I pushed the publish button and began on this journey of being a bridge to healing, but I am so very glad that I did. I'm glad that I tried. Here are a few lessons, that I learned this year, by simply trying...
1. The obvious... You will never know unless you try. When I started #NSPP, I had just given birth less than four months prior. So here I was with this new baby. I had worked in the fashion industry for almost four years. I enjoyed my job. However, I knew that this baby was a bit different than my oldest. Or perhaps I was as well. This kid was not as chill as my oldest. I was not as young as I was when I gave birth to my oldest son. I was Breastfeeding non stop. I was exhausted. I could feel in my gut, that perhaps down the road I was going to have to make the hard decision that most parents fear making regarding work. I was afraid of going down to one income. I knew that in the event that decisions needed to be made, I didn't want to be destitute. Truthfully, after my miscarriage, the vision for creating a resource for women had been birthed prior. I could feel that it was now time to turn my purpose into my passion. However, thoughts of self doubt flooded my mind. What if no one would read my stories? What would happen if no one wanted to share their story? What if it was a complete and utter failure? I had to quickly turn it all off, and imagine the vision at hand. Sure it could have been a total flop... But what if it wasn't? I would never know, unless I tried.
2. You will always learn something new, when you simply try. This year, I have learned a lot. Between hosting events, becoming a Postpartum doula, and simply pressing the publish button, I have learned a few things. I am not tech savvy at all. I'm that annoying person who constantly asks where is the ON button for gadgets that more than likely don't possess a said "ON button." So when I began simply setting up my site, it was quite the adventure. Between the downloading and uploading, and copy and pasting, it was quite the task. But I did it anyway. When confused, I simply googled and sought out YouTube for answers. It worked. This year, I became a Postpartum doula. I wanted to learn how to support women in a tangible way outside of the #NSPP platform. I wanted to become a physical resource for mamas. I studied, read countless books, and attended multiple Doula trainings. I learned that not only could I provide support digitally, but I could become that support and work one on one with the women I would find myself already guiding. This year, I learned how to throw one heck of an event! I learned that listening to what women are in need of is so much more important than pushing your own agenda. People will tell you what they need. And when they don't, simply ask.
3. Lastly, I learned that what I have to say is important. I often tell my kids that they are capable, worthy, and necessary. This is a mantra that is on repeat in our home. This year, I taught my first class. While preparing my lesson plan, I felt nervous. What did I have to offer? Did I have anything important to teach? Not to mention, the women whom I would be teaching with, were pretty amazing and powerful in their own right. The thought was a bit intimidating. I was scared. However, I held space for myself and the emotions of rejection and fear that accompanied the task at hand. I reminded myself that I had something to say. I reminded myself of the very thing that Jon and I teach our children... I am capable, worthy and necessary.
With that being said, I am beyond honored to continue on this journey with you. Thank you for being a part of the 22k and counting women who have found their home here at #NSPP. I don't take it lightly. For those of you who have been vulnerable and scared and still found strength and courage to share, thank you. I see you. Thank you for trusting #NotSoPrivateParts with your story. Know that this resource was created with you in mind. Thank you, to all who have rocked with us for a year. Year 2 is going to be amazing.